but mom, he followed me home

I've been going for a walk at the park in the afternoons after work with my older sister. We always see this one guy, pretty cute young latino, running the opposite direction as us, so we ocassionally pass him and we face each other. We always make eye contact but I'm so uncomfortable with direct eye contact that I always turn down or away. Anyways, the point is we see each other. So 2 days ago, as we left the park area and walked home, we see that same guy standing on the street ahead of us facing our direction. He sees us, does a stretch and turns and begins to walk forward. We dont stop so we are walking behind him and talking pretty loudly. We only live 4 blocks away, and about half way there, either he slows down to listen to our convo or he wanted us to pass him. We dont slow down so we end up passing him up and now he is the one following us. Perhaps he just wanted to check us out from behind IDK LOL. Another block, and he is still behind us a few yards away. We continue to walk and turn onto our street and yup he's still there. I kinda wanted to go into a neighbors yard until he passed so he didn't know where I lived, but noo my sister walked right into my driveway and I had to follow. So now this cute stranger knows where we live. He kept walking down the road but I didnt see where he ended up. We saw him running again yesterday, again we passed by him on the path and there was eye contact but no expression on his face to make we wierd out. No he didnt follow us home yesterday. He's probably harmless but I'm gonna be making sure I lock my doors everynight now. I guess I'm just paranoid.

work look

Today, I actually listened to what my friend Maria @ http://txlovelifeandfashion.blogspot.com/ told me I should do with my new sleeveless top. She suggested I add a 3/4 shirt to the top. Well I do have a 3/4 little sweater, so I wore that. The rest is really typical of my work look...pants and boring but comfortable shoes. I have yet to try out my other purchases from this past weekend, but hopefully I will get a chance sunday or saturday afternoon to play around with different looks. SEEEEE PEOPLE, I AM TAKING YOUR ADVICE...LOL, if you have any ideas or comments for me, please let me know. As you can see, I take them into serious consideration.

Just on a side note, today was a really good day. I've been all doom-n-gloom as of late, but one little phone call from someone special made my day bright again. Funny how just hearing someone's voice can make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside :o)
If it happens again, I'll write about it and why it does what it does to me.
Until then ....bye

Shopping Guilt

The weekend is always MY time to do my shopping and just be a girl and indulge in it. Its wierd, I never used to be such a shop-a-holic but ever since I started to wear dresses, I keep looking through the dress racks and look at the shoes and purses even more. Its kinda an issue now because I am buying all these new things, but Im also running out of space for them. Once I got home, I felt so guilty about spending money on all these new things that I actually left the bags in the car and left them there for a few hours until I finally brought them inside. It think it was the guilt of seeing those plump shopping bags that made me wanna hide them. I left them on the floor in a corner of my room, semi out of sight, until the next day. I saw the bags today when I got home from work and convinced myself that I am working so I can have money and at least be able to treat myself every once in a while with a few purchases. So that is my reasoning. I will eventually use them so they were a necessity. A NECESSITY I TELL YOU! LOL :o)

I also do not have many places or time to even be wearing such nice clothes. Usually M-F, I have to wear dressy/casual comfortable clothes I can move around in for work and I wear my ugly boots or work shoes. Even on Saturday, I work 1/2 day in the morning so I dress in my work clothes and from there go run my errands and shop. Sunday is the only real day that I have off and I've been wearing dresses to church. It's still a little wierd for me to wear a dress, but I guess it just takes time to get used to. Anyways, I was looking through my purchases and decided to follow in the footsteps of all the fabalous fashion bloggers on this site and write about my buys.

This past sunday, I went to Fallas Paredes to use up my store credit from there. I bought 3 sleeveless shirts that I would have to wear with something over them (I hate my arms), a bed comforter, some hangers, and some socks and bras (all necessities)

Then I went to ROSS (my new favorite store) and bought 2 skirts. I'll have to find some tops to wear with the skirts because I've never worn separate skirt pieces. I'll have to experiment with that kind of look.

Then I went over to Marshalls and ended up buying a blue printed dress. I thought it was really casual looking and comfortable enough to wear around and not feel too dressed up. I'll still have to wear a sweater or something underneath, but I'll make it work. I realize how black/white my purchases are. I must admit, I do love black. You can basically wear it with any other color, so I'll have fun pairing the selections with other pieces.

This is my new comforter..yes its PURPLE ZEBRA! And its a satin like fabric so its feels really cool against your skin. Makes you wanna just lay on it in your undies and wiggle all over it...lol not that I have done that, I'm just saying it would be fun ;) LOL. Thats my Alligator mascot there lounging on my bed, guarding my phone.

Here he is again posing with a new bag I bought from ROSS. I didnt realize until later, how much the bag is meant to look like alligator skin (fake) but still..it was a coincidence.

Then I went to Payless. Yes I know the shoes there are of lesser quality most of the time, but I just really needed some flats, something I could wear comfortable and not be dying from wearing heels. So I got the American Eagle flats seen on the left. They have a buy one get one 1/2 off sale so I also got the Lower East Side heels on the right. I can actually walk in them, and they were gonna be 1/2 off so that was a deal I couldn't pass up on. I'm gonna be so pissed if they turn out to be really uncomfortable, I really hope not. They feel ok, but I have yet to wear them for a long period of time. Only time will tell. I'm not too daring with my shoes as of yet. I can barely wear heels, so I give props to anyone who can run around in high heels or stilletos. I am only in my basic training stage. Baby steps, Baby steps. In regards to colors, basic black and neutrals fill my collection for now. Perhaps when I get fashionable outgoing, I will get cuter funky shoes...maybe.

Well that was my sunday. It was actually really fun and therapeutic. I swear, shopping can cure the deepest depressions or feelings of angst and frustration. Its so relaxing, walking slowly through the aisles, looking through all the hangers, taking your time and enjoying the visual stimulation of the many colors, shapes and patters. LOL then you get home, review your receipts and get depressed all over again lol.

going SOLO

So my lack of boyfriend and of-age friends lead me to go to a concert last night all by myself. I wanted to be in the crowd near the stage, but it got filled up quick and I was denied floor access. Soooo I had to sit in the seated area, all by my lonesome self, next to a group of lil tweens. Ughh..it was uncomfortable and a lil wierd, but the music was good so I'm content. Is it wierd that I would go to such an event on my own? Am I suppose to just stay home and linger in my solitude if I got no one to go with me to events? I used to be like that, but why let it hold me back from doing stuff. I have yet to brave going to the movies by myself...there are some movies coming up that I wanna see...HMMMMmmmm maybe I'll do a self-date night..LOL, I'd be my own perfect date. ( I know that sounds kinda pathetic, but it is what it is)

YAY...a wink ;)

So, I was walking at our neighborhood park this afternoon and I saw this sillouette of a person coming toward me on the trail. The sun was limiting my vision, but I could tell it was a guy. When I saw him closer, he was actually really cute. I mean, he's probably still in high school but I still did one of those cheesy hair twirls pretendig to fix my hair...LOL. He did this kinda smile that made him squinch his eyes slightly, I'll just say it was a wink to make myself feel better HAHA. Quite possible he was just laughing at me, but hey this is my interpretation of the situation and I say it was a wink ;)

That should be enough of an ego boost to keep me happy the remainder of the week.

Ohh and quite possible, I might have a date this saturday, but thats still a big MAYBE. We will see.

Tomorrow is HUMP DAY....YAY..LOL. Perhaps I'll go back to the park tomorrow ;) hahaha

blehh weekend

Well....I had a pretty lame weekend. Work on saturday, missing my nephews baptism, have a reall bad ingrown toe nail so no cute shoes for a while (*ouchies*), forgetting my check at the office so not being able to deposit anything til monday afternoon, and practically being stood up. Ok that last one needs a lil explanation. Im such a loser/wierdo that when Im lonely I turn to my online friends. Its like I have a whole virtual life online that is far more interesting than my real life...yes I know thats wierd. Anyways, I was set to meet this one guy I met online, not necessarily for a date but just to hang out and get to know each other. Anywas, long story short, he never responded to my texts......so that was a no-go. I pretty much have no social life now-a-days. Gawwwdd, and with FIESTA week beginning this weekend, I was wishing I had someone to go hang out with. There is this festival coming up this weekend. I went alone last year, and looks like I'm gonna go alone again this year. Also might have to end up taking my 17 year old niece with me to the carnival. HAHA I wonder if I can pass for an 18 year old and it wont look so creepy for a 25 year old to be hanging out with a 17 year old. Well, sorry for ranting...hopefully this week will be much much better.

Easter DRESS

Once again, I dared to venture into dress-land again. I should stop making it such a big deal because girls wear dresses all the time. And I'm finally realizing that I am a GIRL and its ok to be GIRLY.

I found this old picture of me when I was a little girl and I had on a really cute old fashion dress. I actually think it was for Easter as well, so its kinda a throw-back to old times. Awww I look so shy in that picture with my shoulders shrugged and fidgeting with my fingers. And check out the socks with the shoes...awesome! Not much has changed actually since then LOL. But the pic does brings back memories. Ahh sweet innocence. As a child, your care-free and dont care about what others think about you. All that matters is that your mother dressed you up in a nice dress and you felt pretty, like a pretty pretty princess...and many of us actually believed that LOL. Good old times. That sense of innocence and care-free fashion sense is awesome.

Anyways, back to this blog.

Its Easter morning and of coarse I had to wear something nice for church, so I said to myself, what the heck. I've already worn a dress a few times and I survived ok without too many embarassing moments. I have this one dress I bought a while back (oddly enough I do own alot of dresses but just never wear them out) and thought I might as well wear it and put it to good use. So here is dress #3 that I've worn out in public. What do you think? I almost didn't wear it because I could not find my little sweater. I WILL NOT wear a sleeveless dress without one. But I found it last minute and so here is the final product. (please dont make fun of my dead white legs, like I have said, I never used to wear dresses or shorts so that lower part of my body has not been exposed to much sunlight LOL) I kept telling my 17 year old niece how short the dresses are, and she just gives me a look like (O_o) LOL. I know that nowadays knee length dresses are granny-ish and its all about minis and short booty shorts, but hellll nahhhh, I cold never wear any mini skirts or dresses. I guess Im just way too conservative and old-fashioned. Maybe with some practice time with dresses I'll venture that way. But not now. Also the print on the dress is kinda wierd, just kinda in the middle torso but I still like it. Purple and Black are my favorite colors right now. Anyways, gotta go see what I can help my mother with in the kitchen, big family cook out this afternoon.

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE! May it be a blessed one!

Cherry on Top Award

I recieved this Cherry On Top Award from the fabolous Maria at http://txlovelifeandfashion.blogspot.com/. I was truly suprised and honored by this award. The only reason I even have this blog is because of her, so to you Maria I say GRACIAS! I promise to blog more and at least try to make it interesting. Thank you and I appreciate you reading my stuff.

Rules:

1. Thank the person that gave this to you.

2. Copy the award and put it on your blog.

3. List 3 things you love about yourself.

4. Post a picture you love (e.g. a person you adore, etc.)

5. Tag 5 people you wish to pass this award on to.

Three things I love about myself:

1. I LOVE that I'm an innocent person when it comes to many things. I have the mindset of a child and believe that deep down, everyone has a good side to them and I try to see that side in everyone. In terms of relationships, I'm innocent in how I hold to my traditional olf-fashion morals and dont jump into things too quickly. I also dont smoke, drink, or do drugs of any sorts. Im pretty much clean cut (except for my occasional cursing) and I love it.

2. I LOVE how I am finally opening up myself to the world. I wouldn't call myself anti-social but I just never had many friends or just hang out with people. I'm very introverted and shy but I'm slowly but surely coming out of my shell. I finally got to hang out with old friends, become more of a friend to my adult/teenage nieces/nephews, and biggest step of all...actually agreed to date someone which eventually resulted in having an actual boyfriend. Even though that story has ended, I don't regret anything at all. And style-wise, I am actually dressing like a girl now...finally. LOL at the age of 25, I'm finally looking like a woman and wearing dresses and buying shoes other than sneakers and boots. Seriously, until very recently, I hadn't worn a dress in literally 7 years. I'm having so much fun with it too. So watch out world, here I come! :)

3. I LOVE......my curves ;) HaHaHa that sounds so vain, but I like my big hips and thighs. Yeah sometimes I see skinny girls and become jealous and doubt myself and dislike my body for a while, but I am trying to embrace my curvy-ness. Its MY body and no one else's to judge.

A Picture I Love:

I LOVE this picture simply because it is just my mother and I. My mom is my best friend. As cheesy and cliche as that sounds, its true for me. As I mentioned earlier, I don't have very many friends, let alone a BFF, so I never really had any "girl-friends" to hang out with and go to with my problems. The ONLY person who has ALWAYS been there for me ALL the time, is my mother. She is so modest and genuine and funny and reliable and trust-worthy and honest, that its easy to be friends with her. As a mother, she is just as awesome and supportive of everything I do. Of course we have our lil arguments and disagreements, but I think that makes it a healthy relationship. If we were to fake our emotions and opinions, then it wouldnt be as real as it is. Its kinda hard to explain, but I love her as a mother and also cherish her as a good friend, my best friend.

I am passing this award on to:

Maria at http://txlovelifeandfashion.blogspot.com/

Big Beautyful Mess at http://bigbeautyfulmess.blogspot.com/

NikStarr at http://nikstarr.blogspot.com/

DaciaVu at http://www.vu-la-la.com/

Totally Inspired

(I only have 5 followers so you fab5 are my award winners...your all awesome in your own unique ways.)

(Im sorry if I dont know your names, forgive me, I love you all though)