Last night, my parents actually made me cry. I always take into account any advice my parents have for me, but for the most part I act on my own will...I mean come on, I'm 25 years old. Yes, I technically still live on their property, but I should at least be allowed to make my own decisions when it comes to my personal life...right???
Anyways, I have been seeing this guy who I met at our neighborhood park and he just so happens to live on my street too. I had a few posts up about him but I took them down cause it was all drama and I don't want gossip to dominate this blog. Although this here entry is also a rant/gossip. Back to the story...Its obvious that my parents do NOT like this guy for me at all. Although they are friendly to him and my mom has joked with me about him several times, so I had thought all was well. Last I was over at his house at night and around 10 my mother calls me and begins to tell me all this stuff about how my dad is disappointed in me, how I should worry about what the neighbors are gonna be thinking of me, how I have no shame, how I've lost my dignity and self-respect, how from now on I'm gonna be needing my fathers permission whenever I go out, and that if I wanted to be with this guy that I might as well just stay and move in with him, basically suggesting they would rather kick me out than to deal with me. WTF man, how can my parents seriously think they can controll me. But none the less, it did hurt to hear all this coming from your own mother. I have always been close to them and yes I have been very sheltered and protected. But when I do finally act independently and am happy doing it, they get all worked up basically try to put me down. They want me to get away from him, and it worked. He overhead the whole conversation and felt bad and apologized for bringing me problems with my family. He walked me home and I basically was beginning to tear up just thinking about what my mother had told me. It was also embarassing that I can still be influenced by my parents like that. Again he apologized for being the cause of such issies. But this is not about him, its about how my parents want to still control me and as it seems, to have me be miserable, unhappy, and alone at home the rest of my life. I was so pissed off and hurt, still am actually. I don't even wanna talk to either one of my parents right now because I don't know what I'll say, but they can't hold me back from living my life forever. Even if I have to revert to the old teenage tricks of sneaking around LOL. How pathetic am I. Ughhh, I'm not even fit to call myself a woman. I'm a lil girl who lets my parents still influence me like they do. But I'll tell you, it really does hurt to have your own mother and father say such things about you. I'm kinda disappointed that I didn't stand my ground and stay with him, but I am still learning to stand up for myself. Parents are scary!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
which style?
STRAIGHT HAIR?
CURLY HAIR??
or COWGIRL?? LOL
(I was really really bored, and was looking through my pictures...I dont know which style fits me best. I tend to like the wavy curly hair that I create with hot rollers because its easier and quicker than having to straighten it. Different moods and different looks require different hair styles. Thats what I love about being a girl, we have so many options available to us...in our looks, makeup, wardrobe, and men LOL!!!!!! j/k j/k)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sugar Doll Award
I was given this Sugar Doll Award by my friend Maria . I am truly flattered to be given this. I dont know the rules or restrictions. Apparently I am suppose to list 10 things about myself. So here goes. ...
1) I had never had a real boyfriend until earlier this year. I was never much of a dater or person who is very social so its been hard to find someone to accept all my traits and flaws and accepts me for me. Yes, the relationship didnt last long, but I'm still grateful I met him.
2) I went years without wearing any kind of dresses/skirts. Its true and I have written about it before. After my high school graduation, I had not worn any dress or skirt for about 7 years. It wasn't until recently that I had to courage to wear these girly items. I think it was seeing all these wonderful couragious out going women blogging about their fashion adventures that made me want to break my dress ban.
3) I'm a lazy reader, and in high school would read cliff notes of a book if I didnt get to finish the entire book. When it comes to reading for long periods of time, I get bored and easily distracted. And it was an easily accessible solution to my problem. I know, I know, I was a bad girl. LOL.
4) I dont like tomato or onion in my food. Which is funny because they are key ingredients in many Mexican dishes and I grew up with that food. I know they are important in the cooking process for flavoring purposes but that doesn't mean I have to actually chew and ingest them. LOL
5) I dont realy like sweets. A little bit of chocolate is ok every once in a while, but like a chocolate cake with chocolate frosing and sprinkles or flakes is way too much sweet for me. I prefer sour candies and bitter tasting things like pickles, lemon, or chile powder on fruit. I have wierd taste buds I guess.
6) Im a college graduate with a bachelors degree in biology, yet am working reception for a doctors office. Kinda sad, but its my life right now. I'll eventually look into going back for a higher degree or a higher classified job, but for now I am ok with where I am at in life, and that is all that matters.
7) I like WWE wrestling. Dont laugh! I know its criticized so much. I admit the story lines are so ridiculous and the moves are pre-planned and practiced, but its like any other stunt done for entertainment purposes. Thats why its called sports entertainment and it really is only for entertainment purposes, like a soap opera where the characters just so happen to be half naked throwing each other from high ropes and smacking each other willingfully. Its what I call FUN! :) Perhaps I am a bit violent Tee Hee Hee.
8) In my car....I can go from head banging to some rock music, grooving to some hip-hop/R&B, shake to some reggaeton. I love music in general and I can find the good in all genre. As long as the beat/rythm and lyrics are catchy and creative/interesting, its all good in my book!
9) I still have a few stuffed animals in my room. Again, don't laugh at me. I know I'm very immature, but I still have a few "toys" in my room. I tried getting rid of them, but I'm too much of a pack rat and dont like to get rid of things that have some kind of memory attached to them. Hence why I have so much junk just around my room.
10) I dont know how to swim. I attempted to learn as a younger kid, but I guess it just never was my talent. And plus our family didn't go very often to a pool or lake where swimming would be a needed skill, so I just went about not worried about learning how to swim or not.
I wont even pass this on, because I'm not sure if anyone even reads this blog other than the one who gave this to me in the first place, Maria. But to anyone who reads this, I dedicate this long rambling blog to you all. Thanks for sticking around and reading about my lame stories and long ramblings. It's therapeutic to blog and it's warming to know that there are others out there who care to offer advice or comments on your thoughts and words.
Thanks again for this award, and thanks for reading my ramblings. I appreciate your reading and support.
1) I had never had a real boyfriend until earlier this year. I was never much of a dater or person who is very social so its been hard to find someone to accept all my traits and flaws and accepts me for me. Yes, the relationship didnt last long, but I'm still grateful I met him.
2) I went years without wearing any kind of dresses/skirts. Its true and I have written about it before. After my high school graduation, I had not worn any dress or skirt for about 7 years. It wasn't until recently that I had to courage to wear these girly items. I think it was seeing all these wonderful couragious out going women blogging about their fashion adventures that made me want to break my dress ban.
3) I'm a lazy reader, and in high school would read cliff notes of a book if I didnt get to finish the entire book. When it comes to reading for long periods of time, I get bored and easily distracted. And it was an easily accessible solution to my problem. I know, I know, I was a bad girl. LOL.
4) I dont like tomato or onion in my food. Which is funny because they are key ingredients in many Mexican dishes and I grew up with that food. I know they are important in the cooking process for flavoring purposes but that doesn't mean I have to actually chew and ingest them. LOL
5) I dont realy like sweets. A little bit of chocolate is ok every once in a while, but like a chocolate cake with chocolate frosing and sprinkles or flakes is way too much sweet for me. I prefer sour candies and bitter tasting things like pickles, lemon, or chile powder on fruit. I have wierd taste buds I guess.
6) Im a college graduate with a bachelors degree in biology, yet am working reception for a doctors office. Kinda sad, but its my life right now. I'll eventually look into going back for a higher degree or a higher classified job, but for now I am ok with where I am at in life, and that is all that matters.
7) I like WWE wrestling. Dont laugh! I know its criticized so much. I admit the story lines are so ridiculous and the moves are pre-planned and practiced, but its like any other stunt done for entertainment purposes. Thats why its called sports entertainment and it really is only for entertainment purposes, like a soap opera where the characters just so happen to be half naked throwing each other from high ropes and smacking each other willingfully. Its what I call FUN! :) Perhaps I am a bit violent Tee Hee Hee.
8) In my car....I can go from head banging to some rock music, grooving to some hip-hop/R&B, shake to some reggaeton. I love music in general and I can find the good in all genre. As long as the beat/rythm and lyrics are catchy and creative/interesting, its all good in my book!
9) I still have a few stuffed animals in my room. Again, don't laugh at me. I know I'm very immature, but I still have a few "toys" in my room. I tried getting rid of them, but I'm too much of a pack rat and dont like to get rid of things that have some kind of memory attached to them. Hence why I have so much junk just around my room.
10) I dont know how to swim. I attempted to learn as a younger kid, but I guess it just never was my talent. And plus our family didn't go very often to a pool or lake where swimming would be a needed skill, so I just went about not worried about learning how to swim or not.
I wont even pass this on, because I'm not sure if anyone even reads this blog other than the one who gave this to me in the first place, Maria. But to anyone who reads this, I dedicate this long rambling blog to you all. Thanks for sticking around and reading about my lame stories and long ramblings. It's therapeutic to blog and it's warming to know that there are others out there who care to offer advice or comments on your thoughts and words.
Thanks again for this award, and thanks for reading my ramblings. I appreciate your reading and support.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
ouchies..
I walked about 2 miles yesterday with two ingrown toenails and let me tell you, I am in pain today. Thing is, I did it voluntarily. I've been trying to lose weight cause I'm apparently 37 lbs over the "ideal" weight, but lets not get into that cause I can go on and on about how there is no "normal" or "ideal" size. Thats topic for another blog. Anyways, I went to the park to walk around the trail and I was happy that I did as much as I did, but now Im hurting. I knew my toes hurt prior, but noooooo I just had to go. Dummy me :\
Friday, May 14, 2010
last night...
So I'm alive ya'll!!!
LOL I wasn't kidnapped after all. What a relief! :)
Last night's [date] was good. It was thursday night so the traffic wasn't too bad and the restraunt (Chili's) wasn't too busy either. We had a pretty good conversation which got pretty interestingly funny and awkward and confusing at times, LOL. We went from talking about our families and jobs, to how we're both picky eaters when it comes to shoveling off the tomato/chive toppings, to career goals and aspirations, homeless people, and somehow mammary glands? I know I know, I'm kind of a wierd person, but it was an entertaining conversation to say the least. The food was ok, the wierd orange powder on top the mashed potatos was iffy, melted cheese was not melted, and the blackberry tea was crap. But other than that it was yummy :)
I won't bore you with all the boring convo details...besides I don't kiss and tell...LMFAO I'm kidding, I'm kidding. seriously. I'm a good girl. :)
Quick question, if he paid for dinner, does that make it a date date? I'm still unsure.
Anyways, afterwards we went outside and it was wierd to just be standing around in the parking lot at night so we sat in my car...facing NW loop 410. I am not kidding you, we saw this skinny dude who was obviously either high or drunk, walking along the sidewalk stumbling onto the street on occasion, and just strolling along the highway with cars honking at him if he was on the street. I thought we were about to witness him get hit by a car but he turned the corner and we never saw him again. Also funny to note that the security truck of the mall area kept slowing down to check us out. Something about me and sitting in a car in a parking lot that always attracts security people, that always happened with my ex too. I guess I give off a vibe of crime/lewd behavior. (O_o) Maybe its my black SUV with tinted windows that gives off that vibe. My ride is bad ass I know it, even with my hello kitty decal on the back window and rosaries hanging from the rear view mirror and a miniature kung fu panda doll on the front dashboard. But now I'm going off topic, so yeah....I dont know why that always happens.
Anyways, I had fun, I'd like to do it again, but what is that stupid rule about the guy not calling until 2-3 days later. Haha, I dont know the rules to "dating" so I'm just gonna go with the flow and deal with it as it comes. I DO have another date tonight....with my niece LOL. We're suppose to go see Robin Hood tonight so that will be fun. She is 17 year old and such a girly gossip girl. It should be a fun girls night out.
Until next time my lovelies....laterz
LOL I wasn't kidnapped after all. What a relief! :)
Last night's [date] was good. It was thursday night so the traffic wasn't too bad and the restraunt (Chili's) wasn't too busy either. We had a pretty good conversation which got pretty interestingly funny and awkward and confusing at times, LOL. We went from talking about our families and jobs, to how we're both picky eaters when it comes to shoveling off the tomato/chive toppings, to career goals and aspirations, homeless people, and somehow mammary glands? I know I know, I'm kind of a wierd person, but it was an entertaining conversation to say the least. The food was ok, the wierd orange powder on top the mashed potatos was iffy, melted cheese was not melted, and the blackberry tea was crap. But other than that it was yummy :)
I won't bore you with all the boring convo details...besides I don't kiss and tell...LMFAO I'm kidding, I'm kidding. seriously. I'm a good girl. :)
Quick question, if he paid for dinner, does that make it a date date? I'm still unsure.
Anyways, afterwards we went outside and it was wierd to just be standing around in the parking lot at night so we sat in my car...facing NW loop 410. I am not kidding you, we saw this skinny dude who was obviously either high or drunk, walking along the sidewalk stumbling onto the street on occasion, and just strolling along the highway with cars honking at him if he was on the street. I thought we were about to witness him get hit by a car but he turned the corner and we never saw him again. Also funny to note that the security truck of the mall area kept slowing down to check us out. Something about me and sitting in a car in a parking lot that always attracts security people, that always happened with my ex too. I guess I give off a vibe of crime/lewd behavior. (O_o) Maybe its my black SUV with tinted windows that gives off that vibe. My ride is bad ass I know it, even with my hello kitty decal on the back window and rosaries hanging from the rear view mirror and a miniature kung fu panda doll on the front dashboard. But now I'm going off topic, so yeah....I dont know why that always happens.
Anyways, I had fun, I'd like to do it again, but what is that stupid rule about the guy not calling until 2-3 days later. Haha, I dont know the rules to "dating" so I'm just gonna go with the flow and deal with it as it comes. I DO have another date tonight....with my niece LOL. We're suppose to go see Robin Hood tonight so that will be fun. She is 17 year old and such a girly gossip girl. It should be a fun girls night out.
Until next time my lovelies....laterz
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
score one for MERRY
So I think I might have a [date] tomorrow night. It's one of those "lets hang out" kind of things so I won't even call it a [date]. I'm just glad I can have a lil distraction from my boring life and just be a normal woman out and about in the city. I know, I know, I'm not normal, but I can at least pretend to be :) It's kind of a blind [date] too. It's nerve wrecking enough to be out, now I gotta worry about being kidnapped. LOL I gotta remember to take my pepper spray and a tank full of gas in case I need to make a quick get a way. LOL hopeful I will survive the night in one piece and live to tell the story. Wish me luck. (^_^)
Sunday, May 9, 2010
a good day!
Just wanted to add on to the previous post about mother's day. It was actually a pretty cool day in the morning with a few drizzles, then got a bit hot and sticky, but still good weather. I wore a funky skirt to church and just stayed in it all day. Brown and black are neutral colors right. I was actually comfortable so that was good. Of coarse I had to change out of the heels which I wore for like 1.5 hours and instead used my brown cowboy boots the rest of the day LOL. Went to Wal-Mart and Ross, my two worst enemies when I'm on a budget. I bought some necessities and some not so necessary must-haves. I gotta learn how to control my random buying of crap I don't need or won't use. Come on..a strapless shirt, some shorts, yet another wallet, a hot pink purse (still weary about that one) and a shower mat. Really??? I could have done without that stuff but I was feeling happy and buying pretty things makes me happier. I should have gone in my heels, that way I'd be dying to get back home quickly. I did end up switching back the the heels for a bit in the afternoon. Im still battling an ingrown toe nail so I was barely keeping it together. But I'm a though girl and I lasted a whole 20 min. :-) HAHAASo overall a GOOD day!
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