I'm still here :)

WOW I didn't even realize so much time had passed by since I last wrote on here. I kinda lost my inpiration for writing and I became lazy to even try. I still am very hessitant but ohh well. I guess it is a good form of venting and saying stuff you probably wouldn't have a chance to say otherwise.

If anyone is interested, I am still with my boyfriend from earlier this year. It's been 6 months and going on 7 very soon. This is oficially the longest relationship I have ever been in! LOL It sounds like I'm a player and I only keep short term relationships but if you read from when I started this blog, I wasn't much of a dater. I still don't know what he sees in me lol but whatever it is, let's hope he continues to like it. I love him very much and I am quite happy when I am with him. Of coarse we have our turbulent moment, but that's all they are...moments. Nothing major or disturbing...that I know of LoL. I think it is normal for a couple to argue and have rough patches to work through. Otherwise it would be fake because no one is perfect...no one!

Anyways, other than that, life is much the same. I have been submitting resumes and I even got an initial interview and a follow up interview this morning for a customer service representative at a Diabetes Education department of the University Health System here in town. This morning's interview didn't go so well I think. My mouth was so dry and I was stumblilng on my own words and repeating myself. I know I don't have the experience with the system they use but ohh well. They said it would take a while for human resources department to contact the applicants with a decision. All I can do is wait in despair lol. I'm not giving my hopes up, but if a miracle happens, then that could mean I'm finally working on developing a career and not just a job like what I have now. Crossing my fingers for good news!

evolving LOVE

As boring as I may be coming off...somehow I got someone to actually be interested in me. And for this I am grateful LOL. My new relationship is the only thing worth talking about as of late. I have been with Josh for 1.5 months now and he is absolutely amazing. I know it is risky to say to soon but I love him with all my heart. I was very cautious and slow to respond when he told me he loved me, but it felt good when I finally did say it back. He is the best guy I have ever been in a relationship with. He is such my opposite sometimes, but also a good match to my personality. We compliment each other well I think. And even with all my quirks and mannerisms, he still wants to be with me...absolutely amazing! I love spending time with him...even if it is just watching him detail his car. (and yes I actually spent a saturday afternoon doing that LOL)

Even though it has only technically been a few months since I've know him and only 1.5 months actually oficially together...It feels like I have been with him longer. We have done so much and crossed so many thresholds already...like going to various events, movies, meeting the friends, meeting each others parents, exploring restraunts, drinking margaritas, sitting down at a restraunt look at the menu and make an excuse to leave without ordering anything, getting our picture taken at some club and seeing our pic on their webpage, me going to see his performances when he plays with a jazz band or whatever gig he may have, spending days at his house, watching wrestling together, him taking me to his hometown nearby and showing me around, him letting me drive his Lexus, him spending the night at my place, waking up in each others arms. And what's yet to come...I don't really know, but I sure am happy and excited to see what is in store for us.


some of our pics....

This was during one of our earlier dates where we ended up at a random park late at night during a cold winter night.

At FYE trying out some Mario/Luigi hats

This was at a random trip to Michaels and we ended up in an aisle with boas...needless to say we ended up playing around with them and acting silly :)

This was at an event to benefit the Red Cross and it was at Club Rio. Yes they took our picture and it was among the many pics that were posted on the website. It was both creepy and cool to see LOL.

New relationship blooms

Ok, first let me start by saying that I am still seeing Josh and have since become an official item. In some ways we are very different. He is very social and outgoing and I am more quiet and reserved, but we have a blast together. Every outing is like its own little adventure, and he makes me laugh so much and so hard that my laugh lines get red and deep. Sooo unattractive lol but I can't help it.

We even have cute dumb nicknames for each other. We ate at Wendy's one night and he got 2 five pieces of spicy chicken nuggets cause they are so irresitable and tasty and unique LOL, soooooo I call him my Spicy Nugget! And he calls me his pan dulce (Mexican sweet breat) because I'm sweet and mexican and yummy and idk what else LOL.
SPICY NUGGET and PAN DULCE ya'll :)

We bacame an official couple a few weeks ago and even though we are still relatively new, I feel so comfortable with him and can just relax and be me. It may sound wierd but I even met his parents, by an unexpected opportunity, and he has met my parents and some of my family. I think we skipped ahead a few months before any family introductions LOL but it went well both times so maybe we are on the right track. I have yet to meet most of his friends but there is time for all that. There is still much for us to learn and explore. I think maybe it could become something very beautiful and special and I am looking forward to exploring those possibilities.

new development

Sooo..I've gone out with this new guy (greetings and salutations to Josh since I know you read this blog) and he's a very nice, sweet, funny, gentleman who treats me with respect. I didn't know such men still existed LOL. But it's cool because I think we have ALOT in common in some things, but also ALOT of differences in other things. Together we are like Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde. I'm very timid and shy and quiet and reserved in public while he's very social and loud and free and not timid at all. Instead of being at the extreme ends of social mannerisms, perhaps we can learn to meet somewhere inbetween. Hmm, that doesn't sound coherent but it makes sense to me LOL, so it works. I don't know what is to come or how it will continue, but that is part of the adventure. Exploring and discovering. I've learned alot about myself too, I'm quite blunt and can't take some stuff seriously sometimes. I joke alot when I'm nervous or if I'm trying to divert a conversation in another direction. When things get mushy I tend to change the subject or make jokes. The serious relationship stuff scares me, I think I am like a man in that perspective LOL.

But for now I am just enjoying the ride.

i have a blog?

DEAR BLOG DIARY...
I kind of abandoned you a month ago basically because I was too lazy to find stuff to write about. It really does help to just write about my issues sometimes. But since I don't normally include any photos or write about interesting things, I thought no one would even notice I stopped. And its true. But I signed in to the website and though I'd write today.
Sooooo....What's up? What's new? In summary...

I'm still single, still friends with that no committment-unappreciative-jealous-player guy, still working at the same doctor's office, still no friends to hang out with, still struggling with weight issue.

Granted, I have started going to a gym, but as often as I go, I'm not seeing any results. It's my fault too for falling to temptation with food items. But its hard to try and lose weight, but at least I'm trying right?

In regards to "that guy" who's always around, yeah I still see him every once in a while. He actually goes with me to the gym, but its more like I'm his ride there cause he doesn't have a car. Once there, we basically do our own thing and so I'm there left alone the whole time. I know he uses me for some things like that and I know he goes out and see other people, that's why I don't place any emotional value to our time together. In the past, I was really attached and jealous, but now it's like so what.

In regards to the single status...I went out with a new friend a few times, but it's too soon to put a label on it. I move at snail pace and I'm scared to really push for something I'm not sure I'm okay with. Valentine's Day came and went. I'm not gonna cry about not having a date, because I chose not to have a date. I had an offer but since it was with a new friend and I didn't want to have any of that added Vday pressure, I said no. Some of my online friends called me mean for doing that, but I was just doing what comes naturally to me. To close myself off and just deal with things on my own. I know that perfect guy isn't gonna ever find me if I'm closed off from the world, that's why I have at least tried accepting invitations. But it's a scary thing for me. It is the shy little girl in me that is holding me back. Another new guy friend who lives out of town, will be in my city the next few days and hopefully he will find time in his schedule for me. We met up for lunch last time he was in town, and I really enjoyed his company. Hopefully this time around, we can do it again. Only time will tell.

Until next time....

30 Days of Blogging...Day 30 (01.15.11)

WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'LL BE IN 5 YEARS?

In summary:

I will hopefully be healthy, have a stable job, and have a wonderful husband who I love and who loves me equally, and our own house in a safe neighborhood somewhere near my family. Don't think I'd have a child just yet but you never know.

30 Days of Blogging...Day 29 (01.14.11)

WRITE ABOUT ANY PARTICULAR HABITS/MANNERISMS THAT YOU HAVE.

I tend to be fidgety when I'm nervous or not sure what to do in a situation. I've been known to play with my earrings or my nails, and also bend straws or napkins or wooden stir sticks. Basically anything that is considered trash on the table LOL.

I also say "what" if the other person stares at me or looks at me without saying anything. I feel wierd when someone stares at me so I make it known by asking...WHAT?!