(just a boring ranting blog...no pics or graphics today, sawwwwyyyy)
Sooooo, I need to rant/vent a lil, so I understand if no body ever reads this. Basically.....my life has really sucked when it comes to romance. Its been either me falling for the wrong guy , or the "unavailable" guy, the "want more than friendship" guy or "we're together but never have time to talk to you or message you" guy. I was pretty dependent and clingy on my last boyfriend, and I hate to admit that. I'm all for woman independence and power, but I'm just very very shy and insecure when it comes to guy stuff. Im working on it though, Im trying to better myself.
Anyways, I tried moving on and getting back on the horse with a new guy but then got knocked back down. Yeah I was disappointed and kinda hurt, but instead of staying down and crawl back into my all too familiar shell, I got back out there. I met this new guy (new new guy), who I initially met online, had back and forth messages wednesday, then talked for like 3 hours thursday, went on a dinner date then talked 4 hours friday night, and today hanged out with him for like 6 hours. New new guy is really really funny, cute, and genuinly great guy to be around. I really like him and I can see myself with him, but still buried deep in my heart and memories, my last love keeps poping up and confuses me. Am I really over my past, am I just waiting for him to come back, am I just looking for someone to pass the time with, am I using this guy, am I really dating a rebound guy? I hope Im not that kind of person, I just cant help but look to my past when I try to look to my future. I just wanna be happy and have fun and not be stuck in drama as my past year has been. Should I have stayed away from any form of relationship right after my previous one? Am I moving to fast? I really wanna know! LOL, I need advice! HELP!
I think you'll always compare any new guys to your first love. I think it's just a matter of not idolizing your last relationship. He will always be part of your life, but you have to remember that there's a reason why you and the last guy are no longer together, while new guy and you are. I say at least give new guy a chace. With time you'll begin to see him for him without thinking about the last guy. But maybe take a little slow for now.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I know not to go too fast. Hes to nice a guy to not give him a chance though. I at least wanna know what happens, if anything can happen, but your right...SLOW!
ReplyDeleteI would also suggest that you take some time to be YOU! Learn YOU, enjoy YOU, be happy with YOU. and not be defined by a man or a relationship. For a man, women are much more attractive when they have no dependence on the man. Your happiness, joy, peace, discernment and the like should be of your choosing. And loving you is way more important than loving or finding anyone else. when you are clear on that, the right and perfect man will be attracted to you in your life.
ReplyDeleteditto ms. toally inspired! be you merry soul! :-)
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